I LOVE looking at all of my pretty dresses....but I have no where to wear them.
:(

So this summer is going to consist of a teaching assistant job at a camp for children with ADD and ADHD, having my dad away in Egypt for a month, and hoping some excitment or enlightenment makes its way into my life real soon.

Ha ha, just looked at my first sentence.... "where" and "wear"....
:I

Vivian and David meet each other through a mutual need to find someone to split the rent on a comfortable house.







After moving in and getting settled, the two hit if off right away.









Long story short, it was quickly determined that they were perfect for each other.











The question was finally popped which would begin the Glassthorn family.

Once upon a time there were two lovely sims, Vivian and David Glassthorn.




And they had two children they raised the best way they knew how.

Their names were Edward and Violet.






While one went on to create a lovely home with a lovely family, the other would be doomed to a life of dissatisfaction and loneliness.

I'm going to try to post on the Glassthorn family...only because the story of one of these guys is too twisted not to share....these little updates will probably happen very rarely because of my nature....but we'll see!

Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.
Thanks fazzi!



1. harry potter
I remember Erin getting the first three books one Christmas. I randomly decided to pick the first one up on one of my trips to the cottage in Canada....my family couldn't get me to stop reading to swim in the lake with them! I don't know if I really absorbed any of the details my first time reading them because I guzzled them down....but I picked them up eventually!
Other random things: Rachel's Harry Potter party when I didn't really know Harry Potter, getting closer to Whitney in Health because of our mutual obsession in 8th grade, friend get-togethers centered around a new book or movie.....and err...ha ha....learning what the overall concept of sex was from really poorly written fanfiction....ha ha

2. daydreaming
Wow....do I talk about this a lot or are you really observant? Ha ha! This is a MAJOR part of my life. Perhaps even to an unhealthy level. This is how I travel from place to place. When I was younger and I thought the walk from the bus stop home was tedious, I discovered if I daydreamed, the walk would go faster! Listening to music while pacing and daydreaming looks weird to people that see, but I do it A LOT! Even when I water tube sometimes, I daydream! The music I decide to listen to depends on the daydream I'm having. Fast-pace dancing? Singing? Action fighting? :) I daydream about 3 major things: My own fictional stories from books or movies (fanfiction), My own fantasy life and situations for the present, and lately who I can be after college. Also...err....this isn't great but I do this in class too much....*snort*
Oh...just talked to my roommate...apparently I'm a very obvious daydreamer.

3. wii
I miss our wii chill sessions! I really want to do 4 person tennis! I loved playing the Order of the Phoniex game when I rented it...but I COULDN'T get past the Luna challenge...soooo...I probably won't be buying it. There's a Sims's Survival game....maybe....:)

4. romance
I talk about it a lot. I want to hear other people's stories concerning romance. However, I've never been in love. I want to care about someone so much at all I want to do is make him happy. But the word romance seems to mean not the love, but the work and atmosphere around it....so...the romantic scenario for me? One currently would be cuddling on a couch watching a movie. And the other one...ha ha....I'm writing this for my own purpose of a diary as well as for you three lovely ladies so sorry if this is too much info...but a man who dominates and takes control sounds wonderful. Maybe that's mouthwatering, not romantic. ;)

5. purple
*giggle* I have been talking about his a lot haven't I? Purple bridesmaid dresses. Purple and ivory color scheme for the reception. Not a purple monster purple.....but a purple where it's close to brown...or one that's looks icy metallic.....
I've been watching the wedding channel too much. That's why this is on my mind so much. Wedding planning is the perfect combination of romance, daydreaming, and listing/planning thatI love so much. Watch my bridesmaid's wear lime green with orange accents. Pink shoes.

That was cool! Let me know if you want 5 things!
:)

Christmas break was good. Chillen' with the group, being with family.....good stuff good stuff.

So classes started this Wednesday. I'm actually really happy about my classes and professors. Text and Performance will be awesome because it's a theatre class based on interpreting text, which is to me is a step people should take before taking classes about personal awareness of voice and body. My Geology lab will hopefully be okay because it's a 110 level, and the professor TOTALLY gets that most of the students are ones just taking it for distribution. She seems really into what she's teaching and she seems funny. I got all excited when she something along the lines of that she hopes geology could be something that can futher enrich each of ours lives if not necessarily the focus of it....that's really what I hope to get out of classes I take that aren't my major.

Speaking of enriching classes, I'm also in a poli sci class about political campaigning. I got nervous when the prof. started talking about how he was "the political guy" on his campus...because I'm sure as heck not the political person here. But it sounds like a class I can walk away from enriched. I'm not using it for distribution, or a major or minor....but I think I'm just going to stick with this one and plan on it being my last poli sci class I take for awhile....

And finally my FS 102! Love, Marriage, and Desire! Lol! When we were waiting for the prof. to come into the room, I heard another student say she had her for German and she is really into getting-to-know-you games and other things like it. She then comes in, has us stand up and stretch, do the wave, and give Santa ho-ho-hos! I couldn't stop staring at her and a "what the hell" couldn't be contained from my mouth. She said she had us do it so we learn not to take ourselves so seriously in her class that we aren't afraid to talk. There is going to be A HELLUVA LOT of reading...but it'll be fun reading! She had each of us go to the front of the class and introduce ourselves and why we chose her class...and I said my views on marriage are jaded/cynical and I was curious what direction the class would go on that subject. It's so funny I'm so cynical about the topic of marriage and I'm obsessed with bridesmaid dresses!

I NEED TO FIND A DUDE TO SPOON AND CUDDLE WITH NOW!
:'(

Oh!
There you go again with that same old comment about the low mentality of River City people and taking it all too much to heart!
.....
haha
Mrs. Paroo from Music Man will rock your socks in Feb. Even if you can't be there, her shear awesomeness will touch you.
Lol!

Halloween is gone and I'm sad.
:(
Ha ha! Ummm.. I got a new roommate. It's working out really well because since she's more outgoing then I am, she brings a lot of people into the room who I get to meet! School work hasn't been terrible. I've pretty much decided English isn't for me. Maybe I'll take one more class and give it a last shot.

Oh, the other day Allie and I went to the Artist Cup and a middle age man (who I couldn't understand what he was saying so I think might be mentally challenged got TOO close to me and said he was looking for a girlfriend. I told him I had one. BIG lie. He went over to the counter and kept on staring at our table...*shivers*

Thursday I was invited to go to the Animal Welfare House with Allie to pass out candy...turns out I was the only nonmember of the group there...and everyone else were dressed up like animals....I was Minnie Mouse and Allie was a swiss girl....ha ha
Last night I went out to real parties....I dressed up like a vampire, but I wish I had just stuck with Minnie...I would have been more comfortable and looked cuter! Humph!

Oh! So Friday after my classes I was chillen' and sleepen' in my pj's (sans bra of course). My roommate is leaving campus at this point to go home for the weekend....and she's driving a boy to Ohio State on her way. So next thing I know he's in the room to meet her. I didn't have my glasses on and I couldn't find them...so I couldn't really make eye contact with the guy because I couldn't see his face! Lol! But the blur of him I saw I thought was cute....dark hair....ha ha...I thought he kept looking at me, but I didn't have my glasses so I can't be sure and I couldn't look at him...

:s

Wow...that took A LOT of effort....most of this was things you guys already knew...I guess it's good to post if for my own sake....

I am the fucken' queen of bad transitions.

Ha ha! It just seems every time I have a transition in my life...I have the most extreme negative reactions. First day of middle school I got lost and cried during lunch. First day of high school I couldn't find my friends and had to sit with upper class man. First days of college I cry and get so upset I throw up.

.....

nuff said.

But on a lighter note (ha ha!), things have gotten better. My roommate is really nice, and I have at least on other person I can call friend on campus so far. His name is Alex and he is an exchange student from China. Sarah, Alex and I chickened out on going to an off campus party and watched "Love Actually" in our dorm..lol

Funny story about that night. That night was the big Milkshake Dance social..yeah...

Anyway, right before the dance was "Anne Plunket's Sex Talk" which was embarrassing, entertaining, and oddly reminded me that I was alone. *waves off sympathetic 'aaawwws'". I decided to go to my dorm, shave my legs, and fix myself real pretty for the dance...only problem was I managed to pick up the wrong end of the curling iron. *rolls eyes* Then I get there, after making the resolve that at least ONE boy would ask me to dance...and Alex does...but he just mimicked everything I did....not exactly the moves a man should do...very awkward turtle to the max.

I really want classes to start. I really want to branch out from a core social group and be able to float around to those that help me be different parts of myself. At this point I'm worried I'm going to be stuck with one group I'm not to thrilled about...when classes start I hope I'll be able to call more than two people on campus friends.

Let's see how well I can summarize my summer...

I worked at Pizza Hut. Everyone is really nice there, but I just get so nervous going in each day, I can't explain why! Even after a couple of weeks that sinking feeling would strike on my way to work. On a lighter note, I worked as an intern at Creating Landscapes which was AWESOME! I worked with the older player group (5th and 6th graders I think). They were such great kids! I was the youngest of the interns I think...and I met some really nice current Allegheny students....

On a social note, had some random get-togethers throughout the summer. For a while I felt like I was trying to cling on to sand slipping through my fingers, trying to make my connection stronger with some friends before they go to college so we would stay friends. But I'm over it. I'm ready to face the fact that some of my friends aren't wanting that...and I need to stop acting so clingy. I know the 3-4 friends I really care about are going to be there, and I don't need to try so hard to keep them. They are the only ones really worth it in the end anyway! There are also some friendships I'm ready to let go because they only make me feel gross about myself...Am I being too clingy? Am I dressed right? Am I talking enough? Am I talking too much? You get the picture. :)

Highlights of my summer were going to Canada with my family, Cedar Point with Whitney, Teresa, and Justin, Waldemeer with Whitney, Justin, and Annie, and 3rd row seats at the Chris Daughty (sp?) concert at the fair. I might have forgotten something, but it's hard to summarize an entire summer in less than 1/2 an hour!

I move in Saturday (tomorrow GASP!) to my dorm in Schultz. I'm really excited after hearing about my other friend's positive experience at college. I just hope I haven't geared myself up with expectations that are too high....but I really hope I will make friends with just as strong connections as I had in high school...even better than some of them! I've joked around about being a skank when I get to school...but I know that won't happen...I can't imagine myself giving myself up to some cheap thrills and not feeling insecure when the boy doesn't feel connected to me enough to make a commitment. I'm just ready to try to be myself around guys and not feeling so awkward...we'll see what happens!

Man, why did I do this now! I have so much stuff to do! Next time I update I'll be at Allegheny! But knowing me, the next update won't be till Christmas! I'm going to try to get better at this!

A quick catch up:
1. finished last major school assignments
2. turned 19
3. graduated
4. planned graduation party
5. had some fun
6. got a job at Pizza Hut

That's what's happened since my last post. When I feel like it, I may decide to post a significant entry here sometime. Maybe a limerick or something...

Wow...

It's nice to post a blog about me actually being happy!

I haven't been too great lately. The combination of work and loneliness can do a a lot to a girl.

I'm not saying there hasn't been work! I just finished History Day, a 20-page Henrik Ibsen for AP English, and a lot of college scholarship applications. But I've just had a smashing prom, so I'm all good now!

I'm having a lazy post-prom day...let's just hope I get back into the groove of work soon enough to get everything done.

HA HA!

Looking back on that last entry....my life is a constant struggle to keep up!

History Day on Saturday...haven't memorized a thing!
English Paper due soon...haven't started!
French.....never feel like on working on!
My...spending time here instead of getting it done!

...I got into Chatham University and Allegheny College....the only people who read this thing know that...I'm going to Allegheny...it's official (I got the hoodie...ha ha)

Wow. I can finally breathe!
Intro. to Theatre final over.
GATE rough draft turned it.

This does not seem like much, but lets add these ingredients together ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls....

((GATE)(FINAL)) + (No place to work) + (noisy fans) + (Christmas shopping)
2 Days to complete tasks at hand

=

JULIA LOSING HER MIND!

......that would be me. ha ha....like anyone I don't know reads this......

.....that felt good.

I say what I mean. When I touch someone, I mean something behind it, whether it be romantic or a sign of sincere friendship. That's why I hate when people throw words and touches out at me with no sincere meaning behind them. How are you suppose to react without looking cold when you shake off meaningless words and guestures treating them like what they really are, complete trash?

Every nights as I lie in bed before I fall asleep, I always reminisce on my moments with him. Falling asleep in his arms on prom night, snuggling with him while watching television...

I don't know if this is a good or bad thing, but last night, I thought to myself...

Wow.
Did I really have a boyfriend?

His face is disappearing. His voice is gone.

I don't know if I miss it or him. I don't even know if even miss either.

It. Is. So. Errfing. Cold.
My fingers just defrosted from being outside.
On a lighter note, I'm happy. Things have been going so well lately. I'm hoping it stays this way.

....okay, let's try this....
boyfriend
whatever
cool

Just got done with Hello Dolly....I was on stage crew for the first time, and i really enjoyed it....it also allowed me to see who the divas were...sometimes I can't believe the nerve of some people....
I'm really bored. I just wish I had a person I could call that I would feel comfortable hanging out one-on-one with...I also wish I weren't awkward around certain people. On a brighter note, I'm student-directing Peter Pan next March! I'm so excited!

I thought I was having the worst summer ever. But it seems to be getting better.....

I got to chill with my friends a couple of times: Jullian's outing, mini golf, Kennywood, and a B-Day party. I've had some teen angst moments, but whatever......I want a Wii and Guitar Hero!

I need to go shopping...that's odd for me to say, but I have nothing. It wouldn't hurt to lose a couple of inches either, but I'm realistic....LET'S GET SOME CLOTHES! lol

Okay. A lot of stuff....a lot of stuff........

School's out. I passed El Func. and Physics. I'm single. I'm working. I'm loving "Babbitt". I want Harry Potter now. I'm getting a tan. I'm bored.

Nothing has happened lately....other than I'm single.....life is pretty dull right now.....

I had an awesome holiday! I got to the social thang with my friends (even if I didn't fully engage in the conversation), I got to chill with my family which hardly ever happens when we are in school, and I got all of my homwork done....of course last minute....*guilty blush*

After the frantic last minute shopping for food and gifts to make Christmas...well...Christmas....I spent a wonderful Christmas eve with my family. While this might sound Hallmark....my family isn't Hallmark....We sat in the back of the church Christmas eve behaving rather badly...

The choir had left their places in the front of the church and surrounded the people in their seats, electric candles and all. Then, we all joined in on "Silent Night". It was/suppose to be a beautiful moment....however....the priest then asked everyone to hum a verse to conclude the song. It struck me to be kind of funny for the priest to insist on this....but then my sister makes it worse by whispering to me "Freebird?"......then I noticed everyone in my family couldn't figure out where we were in the song because the choir and the rest of the people were not together.....I bursted out laughing....a more of a snort really....frantically trying to regain control, I tried humming, but not knowing were we were made me laugh even harder! My mom started laughing, my brother was giggling, and my sister, the devil child, was trying to make me laugh harder! My poor dad looked rather embarassed...church is a major part of his life....

After the interesting church fiasco, we had a pleasant Christmas eve....I got Erin art supplies and the "Happy Feet" soundtrack, I got Mom a candy bar, a nice pin, and a pair of gloves, and I picked out a book on the Beatles' song lyrics and how they have affected society...my mom made me say it was from me AND Alex...humph....

I got some nice stuff too....not going to go into detail....if you know me, you already know......lol....but if you know me you already know about the church incident...toooooo lazy to delete it....so deal baby!

For New Year's Eve, I went to Annie's for a party, then to Chris'...it was fun....Jeff and I returned to my house at 10:30 to get ready for the ball drop......after the new year was celebrated, I fell asleep on Jeff for 1/2 an hour and promptly sent him home! lol

Now we're back in school......sigh.....I cried the night before....but it is okay now.....but History is frustrating me! I have an 88% and the end of the semester is comming! I want to have an A in that class! grrrr...I love History!